The whole mundane school routine starts again tomorrow. No doubt I'm dreading. But it's a little different this time. There's a creeping feeling of fear, anxiety, maybe stress as my final term in junior college is about to begin. The last lap to the A Levels.
It is infinitely scarier than the O Levels two years ago, because this time there's really not much option left if you fail it. There will be two paths, retake as a private candidate, or get your ass into a university under a course which you may have zero interest in. I wish for neither to happen, so it gets really pressurizing.

I took a good long two-week abstinence off studying and instead just went all out to relax, slack and do whatever I want to make myself feel like a kid again. Nothing to worry about. I am still a kid, aren't I?
After all, I won't have the luxury of doing such things anymore from here on. For the next three months. It won't be easy with my "laidback" nature, as how a primary school teacher once described me. But I will try.

During my break I spent time on the petition for the release of the wild-caught RWS dolphins and how RWS is completely avoiding the issue like a cowardly ass and now screens each comment on its facebook page. Says a lot, doesn't it, Resorts World?
And today I watched a video shared by Claudia on facebook, of Gordon Ramsay making a difference in the shark's fin industry. Then I watched him eat a cobra's beating heart. The heart was still beating and Gordon Ramsay did not feel good about it either. I thought how can these people even have the heart to do that? It's just sick.
I've known about the shark's fin issue for a long time. I tried to stand up against it, but got made fun of by my own family. I gave up quickly because I learned the hard way that no one would ever listen to a child. I hate myself for being so powerless and useless for something I really want to help make a difference in.

So I will try. I don't want to be powerless anymore.

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