I've been extremely upset with this certain matter ever since last Sunday night, or something like that. I have chilled but the bitterness remains. So this is going to be a rant post. Read it or leave it at your own will.
Okay. So. My school has this event called Honours' Night whereby students receive awards for their commitment and achievements in CCA or service to the school. I heard that nearly half the cohort got an award. That's about 400 plus recipients.
Anyway, the people who get the award are class representatives, councillors, CCA leaders in clubs and societies and of course those who did well in CCA competitions be it performing arts or sports. I have many friends who got it and I am happy for them.
I applied for it but unfortunately was not good enough, apparently. I was honestly fine with it, though, UNTIL I learnt that a certain classmate of mine was a recipient as well. I got so mad that I could literally feel my blood boiling in me and my hands were shaking as I raged about it on twitter and to my friends. And I have good reason why I was.
That classmate is a librarian. A fucking librarian. I've been classmates with him for nearly 2 years and I know what his character is like. He does not deserve that award. I mean, so what if he's the publicity head of the fucking school library? I haven't seen him do anything special in helping publicise his goddamn CCA. I haven't even seen any goddamn publicity stunts from his CCA. Seriously, WHAT HAS HE DONE THAT ENTITLES HIM TO AN HONOURS NIGHT AWARD?
If my hours of training, all my late nights home, getting 6th place in nationals and getting 12th in individual rank isn't enough for me to get an honours' night award, I highly doubt any amount of shelving books or scanning bar codes or slacking your library duty away in an air-conditioned room till max 6pm deserves an award.
YOU CAN'T EVEN COMPARE TO ALL THE OTHER CCAs WHO WORKED INFINITELY HARDER THAN YOU.
Our symphonic band, for example, practiced till 10pm DAILY, even during the holidays. They even stayed overnight prior to their SYF in which they clinched the prestigious gold with honours award. They rightfully deserve to go up on stage on honours' night.
What about you? The latest you'll ever stay back in school for CCA is freaking 6pm. And it's not even every day. How can your hours spent sitting in the library ever compare to the blood, sweat and tears lost by all the rest? You can't.
I just feel it isn't fair not just to me or my team mates but to the other CCAs as well. It's like saying all their efforts are equal to what he has done (or hasn't done) and I really think it's unfair. He doesn't deserve that award in all my honest opinion. Screw the honours' night committee and their fucked up unjustified criteria. If I could attend Honours' Night, I would throw a rotten tomato at him when he goes up on stage to receive his bullshit certificate, but even then that would be a waste of the rotten tomato.
When the school claims they try to recognise the talents and efforts put in by every individual student and give credit where it's due, don't ever believe it. It's fucking bullshit. My dear school taught me that getting 6th for nationals and ranking 12th is worthless unlike being a librarian. OH-SO-PRICELESS THAT IT'S AWARD-WINNING. So thank you school, you've taught me a lot.
As anyone can tell from this I'm filled with bitterness and I don't think it'll wear off any time soon. Maybe I need a happy meal.
Labels: honours night, rant, school